I read the news today, oh boy - Robin Williams: 1951-2014
I know how you felt, because I've been there. I've been convinced that those I love would be better off if I wasn't around anymore. I've carried the burden of thinking I was just plodding along in a life I felt would never get better. I am familiar with the feeling that people were just saying it to be nice when they told me how good I was, how I made them happy, how much it would pain it would cause if I died. I didn't have the courage to complete the final step. I am truly, profoundly sad that you did not lack that courage, because you were good, you made people happy and we're all hurting because you are gone.
I want to believe that consciousness is nonlocal, and that you're still lingering somewhere. That you can see the tremendous outpouring of sadness and good will at your passing. This is not because I want you to feel guilt. You have certainly had your share of that. I just want you to see that you are loved. You are appreciated. Without the disease of depression clouding your brain, this will all make sense to you. I truly hope that you are finally happy wherever you are. You deserve it after the fight you put up.
You actually got me through a lot of rough times. My teenage years were pretty trying, but watching your comedy specials and being able to bond through quotes with other kids I thought were too good for my company was a real boon for me.
Goodbye, Robin Williams, and godspeed. I hope that the pain that presented an insurmountable challenge in life has left you. I hope that if you are to be reincarnated, it is to a body that is free of the disease of depression, because you deserve so much more.
